Advice on Guides and Nature (2010)
(By Jafira)

Regarding evidence pointing to the conclusion that most of your guides were aspects of yourself imposed over your spirituality, I can speak clearly from experience on this matter, that didn't make them any less real, they were servitors self created spirits of your own energy given consciousness and sentience by your will, so long as you believe, then spiritually they would be strong free thinking entities, without belief, they would as you mentioned, merge or be absorbed back into your spirit. Real or not, what matters most are the experiences and lessons which you had shared together in the process, and the knowledge that at anytime, with a little effort you can bring them back if need be.

As for how this relates to your draconity, take note that just because some aspects of what you had believed (powerful aspects, I know, a life story and allies, some true some false, the truth lost in between) have been decided to be false. This does not mean that it was all a complete lie, you are still a dragon, it is simply a matter of acknowledging what you know of past and form to be truth based on what little evidence you may have, be it phantom wings, dreams, an inner knowing, visions, etcetera, versus what you may have falsely imposed on your spirituality, and then slowly rebuilding your spiritual identity from scratch. Its a long difficult process, I went through it myself back in 2008.

When I discovered my guides were false, I was devastated, I absorbed and merged them into me, and went through a long depression and emotional break down, I then went back to my earliest roots regarding my draconity, what I first envisioned my form as, who was the first dragon guide to awaken within me, was that dragon my past incarnation, what evidence did I have for such, do I relate with that guides form, if not, which form do I relate with, when did that guide or consciousness awaken within me, where did I live, what was it like, how do I know, questions like that.

I slowly rebuilt, my belief on a strong basis of what I knew in my heart to be true, it wasn't as epic or fantastical as my original beliefs, but it was based on the perceived truth in my heart, and I could be confident that no matter what, I knew who and what I was, and that I was a black western dragon, if nothing else, then in spirit.

In regards to the astral plane, I have honestly never been able to astral travel outside of dreams, in as such, I'm afraid that I will likely be unable to help much in this regards, all I can say is, like all things of energy and spirit, anything can be accomplished through focus and intention, as far as I can tell, nothing can lock you from the astral aside from your own self doubt.

As for ditching your circle in the woods, I visit my spirit circle about three times a week, I actually visited it for about an hour before coming home to write this letter, I went out there dressed in a hooded cloak carrying my crystal tipped staff, I didn't do anything out there but hang out and bask in the energy of nature and the night, I listened to music and twirled my staff around a bit, I sat in the center and watched a few dragon themed Youtube video's on my media player, I watched a slide show of meaningful pictures, I visualized having a dragon tail and my wings, I imagined flying and generally I just relaxed.

After a long day at work I find that visiting the location at night, or for sunsets on my days off is reinvigorating both spiritually and otherwise, it is a refreshing escape from society, an isolated and spiritual environment where I can be reminded of mine, and our magickal nature as otherkin, that we are spiritual beings and can be reminded of our origins and truths temporarily free within nature free from the oppressive ways of mans society.

It is important to visit nature, not for the experiments to return home for our lost love ones and families, nor to return to our true forms before it is time, but rather, to simply remember who and what we are, that we are different, and to know we have a place where we can be different, nature becomes a portal to our homelands not in the physical sense, but rather an emotional and spiritual sense, there, at those locations we are safe from the pains and judgments of this world, if only for a little while, we can be free to be what we truly are.

Anyway, for the most part, until we can speak in person, I would recommend hitting a big symbolic Reset Button on your spirituality, the female guide you fought with, reconcile with her, if nothing else, then do it for closure (if the circumstances of the argument can possibly allow) as for the others, remember, whether real our not, guides self created or external beings will only remain so long as they are needed, it is the intention for the companionship that keeps their presence strong, with strong doubts they will leave or be drawn back to your spirit, with intent they are strong, the choice is yours.

But as stated, hit the reset button, start over from scratch to your earliest evidence of draconity and build upon it slowly forming your own personal truth, and do not fear the results no matter how uncomfortable it may be, seek truth over delusion, and approach with patience and confidence in what you are in your heart.

Aside from that, use nature as I do, for personal spiritual pursuits from within yourself. Meditation and personal growth, self reflection and recreation, societal rebellion and draconic remembrance. Lastly, do something fun, go find a cheap theater and watch the movie "How To Train Your Dragon", rent Eragon or Dragon Heart, or perhaps read a book wherein the protagonist is actually a dragon (rather then simply partnered with one), if not that, write your own story or draw some pictures of your own, just try to do something that helps you to relate with the form or concept of a dragon, and strive to remember why you entered on to this path in the first place and why you love the creatures so much.

As well, never underestimate the potential of some meaningful music mixed with a slide show of decent dragon graphics from Deviant Art or Furaffinity to reinvigorate the spark regarding your beliefs. In any case, it is five in the morning as I write this, so I am likely rambling and probably missed the point of your email entirely. Regardless until we speak in greater depth, I hope this has been at least of some form of assistance to you. Until we speak again, may the spirit of the dragon live on so long as we believe. G`night, G`Day, stay safe, stay well, and never let your flame die out.

Good Song/Video I found while writing this letter: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gm3q8jIcR6k

Regarding Multiples and Phantom Limbs (2009)

(By Jafira)

Normally I don't post much, but I feel that I may have special incite into this particular topic, whether my contribution will have negative, positive or neutral consequences, I cannot predict, but here it goes. I first awakened in the mid 90's and between the years of 1998-2008, I had multiples. As well, over the years since I have had countless sensations of phantom limbs. So I have had at least a decade to run around lost in various confusions and assumptions, left to figure it all out generally on my own.

Now then, First let me tackle the topic of phantom limbs. Many years ago I believed that P-shifting was a physical possibility and I tried countless methods to bring about such a transformation, in the time periods of those experiments I had phantom limbs, you name the limb, I experienced it, off and on, day and night, wings, tail, horns, scales, I felt everything. As a disclaimer, P-shifting obviously was/is impossible and I eventually learned that with time. But, what of those phantom limbs? The obvious answer, is that I willed them there, I believed in them, and thus I felt them, it was simply the mind fulfilling a desire. Now, before I am looked at in shock by my friends here, I did not necessarily say that there was not a spiritual aspect, only that the sensation was willed. The understandings and cause of the sensation are subjective to whomever is having the experience.

To the rational mind, the phantom limbs are simply the mind fulfilling a need. Likewise, to the spiritually minded, the feeling is the consciousness willing the spirit or aura to take on the desired or associated form. The primary point I wish to make here is that spiritual or not, whatever your mindset may be, it is still the individual who is generating the sensation, consciously or unconsciously. In result, I must agree with many others here that phantom limbs are in no conceivable way proof that an individual is otherkin, and this is coming from someone who once vehemently claimed otherwise.

Now then, for the multiples aspect. As said, between the years of 98-08 I had three separate personalities or "minds" Jafira a playful green dragon, Veltra, a wise yellow dragon, and a black dragon Korageth whom is/was my spiritual identity. These three separate minds interacted with my own mind on a day to day basis, much like imaginary friends in my head. When circumstances called for a trait that one of these dragons had, they would bump my mind aside and take charge. For example, I am very shy, so in a social situation, Jafira would bump me and take control, if I had to take a test or an exam, Veltra would bump me and take control. Although these dragon companions were considered to be a spiritual experience at the time and those dragons were as real and free thinking to me as you the reader, what I was experiencing was obviously a variant of dissociative identity disorder.

Much like the phantom limbs, I willed those dragon persona's into existence either consciously or unconsciously. Those identities or persona's responded to a psychological need and ceased to exist after I had matured to the point that they were no longer necessary. Now, much like the aforementioned phantom limbs, the case can be made that the experience was purely a mental malfunction, But, through devils advocate, the case can just as easily be made that they are spiritual guardians or psychological/spiritual partitions, the fact remains that whether spiritual or chemical, the phenomena is still generated by a psychological need and is likely temporary. As a result, having multiples does not and should not constitute proof that one is otherkin. Nothing can prove such a thing, it is simply a matter of personal and individual faith, and those who try to prove such, may likely only be attempting to prove their beliefs to themselves.

For full disclosure, I had a terrible childhood with many life threatening and traumatic incidents, it left me psychologically scarred and socially stunted, the appearance of Jafira and Veltra as identities in my teens were obvious coping methods for adapting from my screwed up past, and assimilating into the real world. I accept that my past spirituality was clearly a case of multiple personality disorder, however, I also believe that their presence within me had a possible spiritual influence, that those partitions of my consciousness were possibly aspects of my higher self, be it draconic or otherwise. However, it could just as easily have been a chemical imbalance, it is up to individual interpretation and I can only go off of faith and only faith there is no such thing as spiritual proof. All I can say about my own multiples, is that as detrimental as they may have been in some cases, when they existed, we had an unbreakable bond, and I loved them.

Either way, allow me to close with the disclaimer to those who have multiples, it is not a game, having those multiple aspects is a double edged sword, you have companions who will never leave your side, but you are also in a process of growth. They are probably there for a reason and something is likely wrong and in need of correction, that said, those experiencing such mindsets should not be afraid to question themselves and discover the root or source of their multiples. In my opinion, we all have only one spirit and one mind, all else are partitions of the latter. Done, I hope my experiences were somewhat helpful to the discussion and I apologize as always for the length of my posts.

Arrogant Dragons

By Mojo LaHojo.
Primarily Targeted to Dragon Spiritual Beliefs

Note: This was written at a far younger age while the head had no sense and mouth had no tact. The fashion in which these views are expressed are disagreeable to me, the author, at this point in time, but the main ideas behind them, though expressed poorly, I still support.

It's somewhat common now to find people running around saying they are dragons, and that is fine, there are also people who strongly believe they are dragons, and that is fine, but when people decide to use it as an excuse to act like superiors over other people, that is when I come in with my black stick to sort things out, and maybe knock some marbles back into people's heads.

This isn't all that common, or it may be concentrated to certain areas of the dragon community, but it does happen, and although I haven't had the pleasure to meet and sort out these types of people, others have had to, and there is also a chance you, the reader, may act in this way, but I won't get harsh on you if you are willing to learn.

Now, the biggest issue, that I see, is dragon walks into general room, sees a human, and begins speaking about how horrible that person and humanity is and how superior the dragon(s) is/are for simply being a dragon and not a human. The beautiful thing is that even if they are a dragon, they are in a human body, with a physical human brain functioning with physical human neuron pulses, which means they have the great option of human psychology applying to them, with all its perks and flaws. This basically means that although you may be a dragon in spirit and in mind/personality, you process sensory information like a human and have the same preprogrammed reactions to stimuli as an average human. Unless you claim to be a dragon but we just see a human form because of us being humans, which is absolutely silly and I hope I don't need to explain that.

Now, as our dragon in a human body and with a human brain continues speaking about all the flaws in the human race and the person they are speaking to, it may become apparent they are simply spewing out some load of crap that has little true basis and is pretty generalized while having limited "real" information to back it up. The end result is the same where that specific dragon is smug with himself for finding so much biased and generalized information while the person, for the most part, can't respond with arguments because you can't argue misinformation. What you can do is give the smug one a smack over the head (they won't listen to you otherwise) and calmly explain why he is such a fool for thinking up such crap. Examples and my personal views on them below:

Humans are harming the environment:
We know, but go tell it to somebody with power (they listen to a lot of your type) rather than the individual you just happened to come across as they probably already try and do more than you are through actions rather than complaints, and focused actions at that.

Humans are weak:
Well, they were designed for survival like any other creature, and they seem to be surviving quiet well with technology. (Though I find most people, of North America do diddly squat when left alone in a forest)

Dragons are superior in every way:
Maybe in your reality, but, as unfortunate as it is that humans decided to kill all/most of the dragons, they happened to think themselves superior as well and that is what lead to them deciding they got to rule whether or not dragons lived. So basically, you didn't learn enough history to realize that acting like this is what leads to you being disliked and hunted down by individuals who think themselves superior as well. Stop going in a loop or stop causing trouble, please.

Well, those are the main points. As said, I haven't come across these sorts of people so these are just guesses, but I can add other points to it. Some things are not to be argued but accepted, but with those, one must see the other side of it, and understand how it applies to all parties and what can be done to make things better. Honestly, this bickering is what causes conflicts to arise because you are representing those you claim to be, and they don't have time to bring down all imposters. When you act like a fool while claiming to be superior to somebody, you cause serious damage to relations between the party you claim to represent and the party you are speaking to.

Pretty much it, so far. Things will probably be edited for content and/or information but this will be the basic idea/structure. Please think about this and contact me for questions, but don't you dare say something nasty then run off, as I promise to hunt you down and skin you alive, be you human, dragon, or anything else.

Good day to everyone and have a happy life.

~Mojo LaHojo

Tycosian Dreams

Life as a Teenage Dragon
SY JYCASTI FARDU JADAMITE, BUMASH BICANAS KIDANA IC LAMANO...
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Prologue: Valley of dreams.
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In a forgotten valley paradise once legendary for its cultures of humanesque beasts and guardian dragons a young explorer of wolfen decent has determined to explore the mountains of Calakos in hopes of finding the treasures of past descendants, he had heard the legends of the great civilizations once built in the valley generations before his time and wished to revive the forgotten pride of the Tycosian race. The wolfman adventurer known as Justra traveled up a craggy slope for several hours, his gray fur dusty and ragged from the climb, he rested on a ledge and looked over his homeland, the Lycona forest below him stretching onward into the distance to the Sycala mountain range infinitely encircling the landscape. Standing up from his short break he continued his long hike to rumored caverns above, until he came across a small cave. Peering through the rubble he noticed the entrance had at one time been larger, believing that he may have found what he was searching for the explorer lit a torch with his supply of flint and journeyed through the small tunnel into a deeper cavern. The adventurer traveled until the cavern ended in a large chamber, in which seemed to be a depression but nothing more. Dismayed Justra began to leave, when he had noticed a crack within a wall, sighting something wedged within it he took a closer inspection, what he had discovered was a large egg. The explorer thought to himself, childhood legends dancing in his mind "it couldn't be..." he thought to himself "all the dragons fled the valley long ago" prying the egg out carefully he begun the long trip down from the foreboding peak.

After carrying the large egg back to his village with great difficulty he concealed it within his dwelling and wrapped it in blankets telling no-one of his find. After several weeks he was stirred from his daily activities to see the egg in movement, he watched amazed to find that it was hatching. Justra watched as the egg slowly hatched and a small dark reptilian head poked forth, body following shortly afterward through the scattered egg shards. The dragon stared at Justra and Justra stood in amazement. The young dragon made a squeaking sound and looked at the wolf anthro. Justra flinched in shock and amazement "the hatchling?" "had the hatchling just talked to him?" Justra realized that his people having revered dragons as guardians of their ancestors would take the lone dragon from him, and possibly punish him for disturbing the sacred mountain of Calakos which he climbed, from that point on Justra gathered his most cherished possessions, and taking the hatchling with him, exiled himself from his people and tribe, traveling for three days and nights through the Lycona forest to a distant river, he settled a camp, within a small clearing and in time had built a dwelling place for himself and the dragon to stay.

Justra had proceeded to raise the hatchling in and later outside the hut. feeding the dragon was hard but Justra had managed through both hunting of animals and through the feeding of special fruits. In time when Justra had felt the hatchling was old enough he tried to teach it to fly by pushing it off the roof of the house and from the branches of trees, through many failed attempts and a badly bruised tail the dragon in time got the hang of its flight capabilities. After a long period the hatchling had gained sentience communicating with Justra through thoughts, motions, and cues. When the time was right, the dragon chose itself a name, Korageth, it meant peak, or zenith, firstly as he was found near the top of a peak, second as he was somewhat arrogant and wished a name of power. Justra over time had taught the dragon all he knew and of the past legends of their homeland, the guardianship of dragons, a great war between invaders, the death of the guardians, the exodus of the survivors, and that he, Korageth may be the last of his kind.

Twenty years had passed since Justra had discovered the lone dragon egg, the two had grown together and explored the lands far outside their forest home, the whole of the valley paradise within their sight, its great lakes and meadows newly found outside the forested hills, new landscapes to be explored and within the center of this forgotten valley world, in plain sight outside the forests resting in solitude upon the grassy meadows as if lost to time and soul was seen ruined stone structures, and in their center surrounded by crumbling walls and abandoned homes was the greatest spectacle, a spiraling tower of impossible construction reaching pridefully up to the overcast skies above.

It was then the two had discovered and explored the towering remains of the kingdoms capital the legendary city of Cycanthra. In his self imposed exile the Tycosian explorer Justra set forth to restore his ancestors homeland, whilst the dragon resided restless within the dark ruins, longing for purpose, for adventure. That dragon was me, I am Korageth, this is my story.
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The Story of Tycosa
(The Battle For Paradise)

Background About Tycosa:
Tycosa meaning Paradise was a large valley somewhere on Terraset it had mountains on all sides. and consisted of lakes meadows and forests the sky was usually cloudy which provided calm temperatures anyway it was populated with animal people or beastmen (demi humans for lack of a better word) similar to the ones seen on certain anime (Tries to think of which animes...) like Inuyasha or certain monsters on Yuyu Hakasho, Dragonball or...

(Veltraz: he's trying to say Anthro humans = humans with animal like characteristics) oh yeah, Well anyway two hundred years ago they had a large empire in the center of the valley but human invaders from a kingdom north of the valley started a war and shattered the empire. The story sets off in the present. where a young explorer is searching for the ruins of this empire and finds a dragon egg.
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Introduction:
(Character Commentary)

Dragon Trio: Well, here we are. We're the dragons from this story, and it will be told by us.

Jafira: Time for intro's! I'm the green dragon Jafira Sunstrike

Veltraz: I am Veltra Skyburn a yellow toned dragon.

Koragus: And I am Koragus Nightwind (Aka Korageth, Koren, or Koragas) the dark dragon of Tycosa!

Jafira: So who should start the story?

Veltraz: I would say I should start.

Koragus: No, I think I should, it's my story.

Veltraz: Fine then you can do it.

Koragus: With pleasure!

Jafira: Not him! He'll ruin it.

Koragus: Graa! Shut up, I'll do fine!

Veltraz: Good, but first let me explain to them what it's about.

Koragus: Ha, as if the humans would care I doubt other dragons would.

Veltraz: (sighs) Korageth please don't interrupt, now then, we lived in a valley called Tycosa or it could have been Colosa we forgot, we believe the world was called Terraset. We were the only ones of our kind left in that particular region or area, you see for some reason the dragons of Tycosa migrated away from that region long ago, and in separate ways we three were left behind and forced to raise ourselves.

Koragus: So we all grew up in separate parts of the valley. We eventually discovered each other then something happened. As it is my life, allow me to start with my earliest memories of these events.
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